Messed up head

To you my stumbled words, thrown forth with stupid grace,
a drowning sea of care, brings anger to your face.
My flapping mouth canst seldom rest,
your mood so delicate, put to the test.
why oh why cant i silent be,
so darling dear can miss little old me.

In all the tears and fury flown,
my gasping sadness, full mast down,
her frustrated gaze now shoots me straight,
I must act now, cannot be late,
for she the goddess in my life,
the truth the beauty the future wife,
without her i cannot survive,
time to change to grow to thrive.

Know my dear with all the mess,
spewn from my head amoungst the stress,
all i want and ever wish,
is you to live, to hold and kiss,
to be in happiness a warming glow,
to be with the one you'll always know,
he wont leave or do you wrong,
but live with you in true loves song.

Whispers in the night

A surety of soul and heart, such a bond can be no lie.
all I can be, all I want now in grasp, a vision is she.
such harmful reactions deep in me, times past around my neck
a chain cuts bone deep, chills from my speech, such horrors lurk
flesh glistens, exposed now beating heart fast,
each word a poison dart, panic now, looking in through murky glass
stop. stop I must.
her time my only cherished time on earth, all bets off, all changed,
her smile my waking purpose now, and life a gift from my passions beaded brow.
but whispers in the cold, through the ice, my clutch is tight, blood runs through my fingers
too much spewed up from my pains, burning her
banished once, now stirring, driving madness
that tainted heart reaching out holding on to her shaking hand,
paused, shaking, unsure, to clasp and pull up
or let go and be free from it. from me.

my beast

grizzly fellow of love my fear. Stalls me, scalds me.
a daily dose a pain I know, hurls me, sickens me.
what twisted creature carved from inside.
a beast unchained, torments me.

why strength in love eludes me now,
still plain to see, warm light to all casts relief,
but fleeting light in a dark world bears my grief.
why these chains wont break, I know not.

trust in her, her scattered affections rain drops on baron lands ,
suffocated, squeezed perhaps soured by my clenched hand,
holding on so tight, eyes shut.
afraid when pried open, squinting, she will be gone from me.

Three

dreaming through storm raged waves,

shadows froth and swell, rolling high above. 

tossed a lonely soul an age apart from she. 

waking curtain falls, a drab grey upon mine eye.

onward with half a step with half a heart,

a tug inside, so constant 

apart from me, apart are we. 

Sleep a while, i see her dream. 

beauteous in the darkness still, beauty unmatched,

even in spite now of waking frown, there fixed, 

a sadness washing ashore, my warrant my charge. 

she my light, whose smile an angels shamed, 

strive now must I her man, to be to stand. 

foretold no truth, no straight path to yomp.

Down and up, under, between, 

teeth gritted over knife blade, 

rage balled up swallowed down, 

held deep springloaded, white hot

don't touch don't take, do not offend. 

stays my wrath my hideousness.

lasted time now together anew, now all change 

And with me she is my smile 

and she alone.