To The Dawn

The honest thief, a happy chance with so sweet a smile.

My heart stolen away down love's winding ways

Through parched earth and stormy sands, 

Across time, stretched apart with reddened eyes, 

Blazed with determined desire, a constant ache.

The creatures here, stagnant, grey.

None carve out shapes and shadows, lighting darkness 

When graceful curves caress upon eyes and all beauty 

A boundless force so fixed yet shaken loose with, 

A tumbling flick of her dark black hair.

The shining glint of my promise a circle not ending. 

With weighted stance I stand steadfast, 

To each other a spring awaits, a blossom field 

To sow and renew with all strength and light 

From sinew to strain now and always, 

We illuminate our way through the darkness and into that dawn. 

moving forward

for life a life must be given, an offering your own
laid bare, ground down, out stretched.
pains tick past the days to months
all futures wash at your feet, lapping in and out,
the dark shadows with the shimmering sun.
foot first a stepping stone step again,
repeat.
moments pass with disdain, passing silently
joy with despair bound by, arm in arm
life must be given for life, and suffered.
suffered and enjoyed with clenched hands,
with teeth clamped, with eyes red and voice hoarse,
heart ached and boots scuffed.
most wretched darkness and glittering light
a wondrous sentence, a maddening gift.
agonising footfall after footfall

the party through the curtain

cast now into black shadows a merciless dark,

protrudes from beneath and upon deck to consume. 

from calmed seas and swells a fury full forth swirls, 

ripping gnawing gentle roots, newly set and sweet, 

not fully formed an idea, the notion, the cheek!

this sought out desire, new, novel. the chance, 

for one real thing, one purity in body. 

happiness an animal released. 

But through timbers flourished and mountains still growing, 

through grass green so green, the restless desire

the devilish wink. it moves here and there, 

light footed and sly. watching. 

weakened doubt inviting more seductive hands 

beckon and entice away, smells smoke, sweetmeats, liqueur

through the scarlet curtains wofts like mist.

the hoarse voices of hedonist kings ruined and terrible, 

call out for flesh, fuck. fizz, sigh, gasp, 

the line stretches back, the people gaze

the people lust, their thousands trapped,

in a glamorous party long, hard and damned 

choices

passing winds and dust, ebbed away, times prize
a wasted creature, thinned and eyes dark with emptiness.
gone now all things. colour.  a timeless haze upon furrowed brow.
lost are faces and laughter now murmurs and echoes.
distant music down grey corridors, floating broken, flat.
the chalice passed and the back broken,
choices after choices as pages and pages torn out and burnt
and in a ghost of smoke, takes form and is gone.

Messed up head

To you my stumbled words, thrown forth with stupid grace,
a drowning sea of care, brings anger to your face.
My flapping mouth canst seldom rest,
your mood so delicate, put to the test.
why oh why cant i silent be,
so darling dear can miss little old me.

In all the tears and fury flown,
my gasping sadness, full mast down,
her frustrated gaze now shoots me straight,
I must act now, cannot be late,
for she the goddess in my life,
the truth the beauty the future wife,
without her i cannot survive,
time to change to grow to thrive.

Know my dear with all the mess,
spewn from my head amoungst the stress,
all i want and ever wish,
is you to live, to hold and kiss,
to be in happiness a warming glow,
to be with the one you'll always know,
he wont leave or do you wrong,
but live with you in true loves song.

Whispers in the night

A surety of soul and heart, such a bond can be no lie.
all I can be, all I want now in grasp, a vision is she.
such harmful reactions deep in me, times past around my neck
a chain cuts bone deep, chills from my speech, such horrors lurk
flesh glistens, exposed now beating heart fast,
each word a poison dart, panic now, looking in through murky glass
stop. stop I must.
her time my only cherished time on earth, all bets off, all changed,
her smile my waking purpose now, and life a gift from my passions beaded brow.
but whispers in the cold, through the ice, my clutch is tight, blood runs through my fingers
too much spewed up from my pains, burning her
banished once, now stirring, driving madness
that tainted heart reaching out holding on to her shaking hand,
paused, shaking, unsure, to clasp and pull up
or let go and be free from it. from me.

my beast

grizzly fellow of love my fear. Stalls me, scalds me.
a daily dose a pain I know, hurls me, sickens me.
what twisted creature carved from inside.
a beast unchained, torments me.

why strength in love eludes me now,
still plain to see, warm light to all casts relief,
but fleeting light in a dark world bears my grief.
why these chains wont break, I know not.

trust in her, her scattered affections rain drops on baron lands ,
suffocated, squeezed perhaps soured by my clenched hand,
holding on so tight, eyes shut.
afraid when pried open, squinting, she will be gone from me.

Three

dreaming through storm raged waves,

shadows froth and swell, rolling high above. 

tossed a lonely soul an age apart from she. 

waking curtain falls, a drab grey upon mine eye.

onward with half a step with half a heart,

a tug inside, so constant 

apart from me, apart are we. 

Sleep a while, i see her dream. 

beauteous in the darkness still, beauty unmatched,

even in spite now of waking frown, there fixed, 

a sadness washing ashore, my warrant my charge. 

she my light, whose smile an angels shamed, 

strive now must I her man, to be to stand. 

foretold no truth, no straight path to yomp.

Down and up, under, between, 

teeth gritted over knife blade, 

rage balled up swallowed down, 

held deep springloaded, white hot

don't touch don't take, do not offend. 

stays my wrath my hideousness.

lasted time now together anew, now all change 

And with me she is my smile 

and she alone.